I am starting this to try to document my journey away from alcohol as the master of my life. I am terrified, and I'm not successful yet, but I'm ready to try.
It's funny, looking back at my history with alcohol. I didn't really start to drink until I was in my twenties, but once I started, it was on. And for years now, I'm not sure how many, I've wanted to quit and wanted to quit and yet every day it's the same damn thing. I've known for a long time I didn't drink like "normal" people. There is never enough, it's just a question of when I can start. But I am tired of feeling like I don't have control, of feeling like I'm hiding from everyone, from the world. I think I can be better. If I keep trying maybe I'll really believe I can be.
